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08:20am 19/05/2003
 
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09:35am 10/05/2003
  beuatiful
Slit Throat(self-inflicted). A slit throat
may show what a person is truly feeling, as
well as their interest n the more morose. The
person will often be reclusive, or have a
dark/bitter dispositon. They might have a
strage fetish, such as vampires, blood, or
biting.



How this effects you:



You yourself, may find you agreeing with some
of, if not all of the symptoms above, if you do
happen to have some similarities to this
stereotype, I suggest you get the help you
need, and more then likely, deserve.


How Will You Die? (Caution: Graphic Photos)
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school...   
10:21am 09/05/2003
 
mood: frustrated
well guys im in school.. well more or less.. im at school.. not really in any classes.. seing i only have to be here for an hour.. but im stuck here for 4 hours... shitty.. and my boyfriends being an ass hole... again... im soo sick of him. but i love him so much, everytime hes an ass he blames it on me.. its always my fault.. of course..
i dont no why i deal with him.. i wonder to my self sometimes "why do i love him so much?"
i mean more often then not it seems worth it.. but theres times like this when im not too sure...
steven curtis i love you but this has gotta stop. weather its me starting it or you. it doesnt matter who starts it this isnt first grade...
get over it.
thats all i gotta say..
just get over it.
thankz
i love you more then i should

*heart*
~jamie~
 
     
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my tears...   
06:22pm 07/05/2003
 
mood: pissed off
i hate have to choose between loving you or hating you..
cuz when you do this i hate you..
and i hate having this feeling towards you..
its a feeling i never though id feel for you..
but i cant sit at home all day not knowing where you are..
is it so hard to let me know where your at?
your doing to me what i did to you..
i hope your happy..
cuz your killing me..
is it so fucking hart to pick up a fone and say "hey jamie im going out with ____ i'll call you when i get home" i dont fucking think so..
so untill it stops..
fuck you
 
     
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my tears...   
06:22pm 07/05/2003
  how can i love so much and hate them so badly at the same time?
thanks steven fuck you

if u want to talk to me you better catch me before i leave... cuz im not telling you where im going.. and once im gone im not calling you at all till i get back let you see how it feels
 
     
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no one...   
01:59pm 07/05/2003
 
mood: dorky
no one ever comments on my entrys.... how am i ever supposed to feel loved?
 
     
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my life...   
01:41pm 07/05/2003
 
mood: content
well im at school... drama to be pracist...(sp) not really drama just drama area.. im only suposed to be here on monday wednesday and friday... for only first period (dijital photo) but its like 5th period now.. and schools ulmost out... and guess what? im still here! ahhh! i hate school sooo effing much (fucking) oh well.. im hanging out wtih gregory tantum right now and on occastion joshua boggs comes in... i love josh he is the coolest kid EVER!

GUESS WHAT!!!
guess whats in 19 days???
jamie Benjamin's (me) 18th birthday!!!
woot!!!
woot!
then im getting my toung perced...
i cant wait till i 18!
anyways i think im going to go beacuse im getting board again.. and i dont really have anything to say except i almost died last nigh i think..
i was soo fucking high.. it was the highest i have ever been in my entired life i swear...
i dont know why either beacuse i didnt even smoke that much.. it was like two bowls i swear and i couldnt even walk on my own.. i felt like i was going to die. it was good and bad at the same time... i couldnt move and when i tryed to walk i would fall over or stumble..
and then i went home... ate... and passed out... it was kinda shitty...
i had alot of fun though...
i think its from the other week when me and steven smoked 2 or 3 quads in 3 days... there wasnt one day that i was sober...its like... sunday he got a quad for free and 30.00$ and so we smmoked all of that that day (well just about) and then we stayed at his dads house and woke up and started smokeing right away.. and then he spent 100.00 and got another quad or so and we smoked half of that and he gave me some of it to take home.. and me and tamara smoked as soon as we woke up on monday and then right after school me and steven smoked again... (anyways back to my story) i think the reason that iv been getting so high latly is beacuse everytime i smoke agian it brings back that high... so dude,
im going to go beacuse im sick of typeing and im board... and i still have 45 minouts till school is out and i finally have a ride home to my boyfriend :) i cant wait i miss him sooo fucking much... all day yesterday we spent fucking fighting... anyways all is well so im going to go now
i love you all,
*heart*
Jamie
 
     
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last night...   
07:59am 07/05/2003
 
mood: tired
well i hung out at home all day yesterday beacuse i didnt have schoool.... so i hung out at home waiting for steven to get home..... i updated my www.melodramatic.com (puffpuffpass420)

but then steven came over and we got into a huge fight (about what is none of your business) but we had a good time... i had never been as high as i was last night, ever in my life... it was kinda scarry but fun... : )
anyways moral of my story is..
steven curtis im sorry im trying and i love you sooooo much... please belive me?
 
     
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long days   
07:41am 05/05/2003
  well i think all this smoking is making me sick...
i dont know but lets hope not.. im going to the doctors soon... to see whats wrong with me.
its like.. i cant breath or it hurts in my chest...
sometimes i cant breath unless i like yahn..
and that sucks...
and it hurts when i move or hick up or breath.
i dont no
hopefully.. im just sick..


anyways... i had a fun weekend.. me and steven spent all friday and saturday together ( i dont really REMEMBER what happend) its all kinda a blurr..
i do remember we went to the movies... and saw Xmen2 me and steven saw that on friday night.. it was soooo goood.....
and then sunday i went to see steven's dad.. and steven went to kevens house. and i was going to go over when i was done doing what it was i had to do..
but i couldnt get ahold of him all day.. he wasnt at anyone's house that he said he was at... and he didnt call me.. so i made other plans to go to the movie with even and craigory... it was soo good to see evan again... steven FINALLY called me as i was walking out of the house... and so he told me what happen... so i forgave him and i told him i was going out and i called him from craigs house and we came and got him and went to the movies at the spectrum.. (me and steven and evan snuck in) and guess what they wanted to see... unbeliveably enought Xman2.. so yeah i saw it saturday night and sunday night,.. and now... IM AT SCHOOL... woot?> umm, no...

well
lata people...
 
     
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08:19am 02/05/2003
  im sick... :( i think i smoked too much this weekend... woaw... ALOT!!!

oh by the way.. CRAIGS THE COOLEST
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steven i love you babe
 
     
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woaw dude!!!   
07:45am 28/04/2003
 
mood: content
omg...
yesterday it was me and steven and keven hanging out...
and steven got this weed that was out of control! omg it was sooo good..
steven took one hit and was sooo fucked up..
i took like 4 or 5 hits and i was fuking gone!
i went home at 8 00
ate a few raviolies and some orios then passed out at 8 30.
i havent been that high in a long time,.. it was sooo great...

me and steven and keven razored up this HUGE hill to the water tower by arroyo vista (for any of you who knows who that is)
we razored up it TWICE!! the second time we went above the tower on this HUGE hill...
we could see soo far.. it was soo cool beacuse i was so high...

anyways.. it was a fun weekend...
 
     
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bitch, umm, no   
10:28am 27/04/2003
  fuck you all.
i dont feel like taking all your shit..
its makeing me a reck..
your turning me into a fucking bitch..
im done..
be gone.
 
     
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10:29am 26/04/2003
  well its been a great couple of days with a few "unusual" events...
well first of all... i figrued out why iv been such a bitch for the last couple of days... the dreaded.. PMS!!! AHHHHHH!!! yeah its crappy... anyways... umm, yeah some information you proably dont want to know... i took a shit in the hot tub :) lol i told you, you dont want to know... and i threw up in the same hot tub the next day.. lol. ummm,
but me and steven didnt fight at all yesterday.... :) i was really sick... cramps... verry shitty.. anyways im board and i dont feel like thinking about events in my life... moral of the story iv had a great week..

later..

ps. SMOKE POT!
 
     
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10:34am 24/04/2003
 
mood: pissed off
i dont really know whats going on in my head latly....
i'v been trying to figure it out... i really have.. but so far no luck. its like a maze in my head.. everytime i start to get somewhere i hit a dead end... so i have to go back. and it sux. cuz, beacuse of that me and steven have been arguing alot.. and i hate it... i love him so much i dont no why he even deals with me... he shouldnt have to put up with as much shit as he does from me... im trying i really am.. i just dont know what to do.... i try to show him my love. but it doesnt seem to come out as i hope... one day i will prove to him my love, i really will... i just hope he knows that...


steven baby.. if you read this.. i love you so much i love you more then life its self... please know that ilove you.
 
     
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fun lovn...   
03:44pm 23/04/2003
 
mood: okay
well its been a fun couple of days.. iv been hanging out with my man... steven i love you so much. we've been having alot of fun... iv been kinda a bitch latly... but we had a good... FIGHTless day yesterday.. we bicker allot but, im working on it.. =) its been 1 year and 2 months and 2 days woot! well i got no more that i want to say to you... have a good day...


peace
 
     
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420 sucked   
08:29am 23/04/2003
  well my 420 wasnt as i had planed... oh well shit happens.... steven had to stay some-what sober beacuse he's sick.. =( we went to kevens... and keven and kevens friend jeff smoked me out.. woot... and cris brought over raga-daga.. (legal pot) woot.. i got pretty Fucked up. it was fun.. but i didnt end up going to the party i wanted to go to.. oh well.. im still living.. well... what happend to me is really none of your business and i dont feel like thinking about every fucking event that happend right this second.. maybe later i will.. till then peace out or check out my melo.... (puffpuffpass420)  
     
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420 sux...   
08:24am 23/04/2003
  well my 420 wasnt as i had planed... oh well shit happens.... steven had to stay some-what sober beacuse he's sick.. =( we went to kevens... and keven and kevens friend jeff smoked me out.. woot... and cris brought over raga-daga.. (legal pot) woot.. i got pretty Fucked up. it was fun.. but i didnt end up going to the party i wanted to go to.. oh well.. im still living.. well... what happend to me is really none of your business and i dont feel like thinking about every fucking event that happend right this second.. maybe later i will.. till then peace out or check out my melo.... (puffpuffpass420)  
     
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sex fettish?   
11:46am 20/04/2003
  pierce
pierce


What's YOUR sexual fetish?
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11:43am 20/04/2003
 
borderline


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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what drug should i be hooked on?   
11:38am 20/04/2003
  Cocaine
Cocaine.
You like to talk,
you like to run,
but most of all you like to have fun.


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